Between Darkness and Light

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-08-17T00:18:00

2006-08-17T07:18:45Z

Also i want to say the Devil walks in Parada was a good movie.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-08-16T23:46:00

2006-08-17T07:17:11Z

Hello people its that time of month again, where I place my rants, thoughts, emotions or anything out on the web.

Facts facts facts
Few things I feel like saying before I go on my thoughts. The way I write and the way I speak are completely different things. Why because I have the luxury to use spell check and time. I mean I can delete and read over this before its posted.
Another thing, you know you’re supposed to drink 2 litres of water a day…. I can’t do that. I feel that’s way too much H2O for me. Milk on the other hand is no problem.

Actual LJ stuff
Since the last I wrote a lot of things have happened. At my job you meet the hottest/coolest/freakiest people. Working in downtown you of course meet a lot of gay people. I was helping out a couple and they ask we had any lacteous free milk. I told them that sorry where out and noticed that they where carrying ice cream. I ask them if they would be fine eating that. They said a little would be fine once in a while, and I made a joke about eating ice cream an extreme sport since you could die from it. Imagine extreme ice cream! During that week I served the most interesting person( I work in the deli section). There was this women with a huge fake chest, she looked hot but something was bothering me, it wasn’t until I took a longer look, did I notice that she was a tranny! I whispered to my co-workers to double checked, they said she was but she looked hot!
I know that these post seem to jump all over the place but I just don’t feel like organizing my thoughts. Tuesday was the day that a friend of mine, Ashley ends her job at TELUS. All I have to say was that I’d miss her, since she’s heading back to Vancouver Island for a bit. She was a nice person not to mention Hot to. I swear the temperature in the room heats up every time she comes in. I’ll miss her.
Just for the hell of it, I would like to mention this. The people I hang with all the times, my friends, are really admirable. You remember as a kid, where no one did anything after school, until the kid with the ball shows up. After that everyone on the play ground would play together. Then when the kid with the ball leaves everyone would go home. My friends have this strong presence, like the kid with the ball. I really admire this about them.
I have so much more to say but I feel at a lost for words right now.

Happiness…what is it? I don’t know, but someone told my its like drinking hot chocolate on a cold day.

one great thing of being a kid

2006-07-26T07:48:42Z

As father time slowly empties our hour glass with we call life. We lose things that we could have done as a child. One of which is being able to cry. I've been told that a good cry is good for you/ Bur when we turn to adults, we forfeit this luxury. In a society where men are expected to be manly, and almost emotionalist, where guys are not allowed to talk about “feelings.” I wish that life could be better.

While at work, I went to starbucks and had a “strawberry cream frappachino with 2 pumps of mocha venti size.” It was great. While I was there I notice a cute Korean girl staring at me, I assumed she was only interested in why I was still wearing my uniform. I started talking to hear, and learned quite a bit about her. She was from Korea and have been living in Vancouver for the past 6 months, by her self. I was impressed, for a 22 year old being able to live alone and got to school. She wasn’t the first person I’ve met in this situation (I never got her name). I noticed it quit the common phenomenon, for downtown.

I’m feeling tired, which means I sleep, later.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-07-23T23:42:00

2006-07-24T06:42:32Z

fun for everyone. thanks Mythical fey

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I don't walk in the shadow of the light, but in twilight

2006-07-10T08:22:11Z

Wow I can’t believe that I haven’t wrote in such a long time. A short recap of what happened in the last month. Got my wisdom teeth removed, went on a whistler trip for a week, with Adrian, Jessie, Brian, Kong, Ming, Ken, and Wendy, a friend of Ken’s. That was a week long trip an all I can say it was fun.
When I returned I got a new job at a place called nesters Yale town. It’s a fun place to work. I work at the deli section. Also if anyone is looking for a job, the grocery area is looking to hire anyone. I think even if it is only for summer. Its located right across from a strip bar, called pent house. LOL I swear I must have served 2 entertainers. I made some new friends there, and its giving me a chance to hone in on my cooking skills. You see I cook best when there’s a book in front of me. But now this place gives me a chance to be creative. I started to garnish the food, and I think I’m slowly getting better. I’m also taking summer school because my damn macro teacher failed me with a 47%... a 47%! I can’t bitch and complain about that, theres no way that the teacher would boost me up to a pass.
I had more to say before, it was all there ready to be typed out, but I keep pushing this off to another time. Well here it is and I lose most of my ideas in my dreams.
Dreams that seem so far. Tucked in the ridges in my brain, in the corner of my mind.
Anyways 2 days ago at night, white john promised Kong, Adrian and I a party. We arrived but the it got shut down by the land lord. Let me tell you, we where pissed, I mean it’s rare for me to go to a party, I was hyped to go to this one. When we arrived as I was saying it was over, so people who still wanted to hang went to English bay. We fallowed. I was hopeful that it might still go on at the beach, o how my hopes where crushed and scatted in the salted air. We tried to have fun, but when your most of your friends aren’t there it’s kind of hard.
On a side note, I would like to say that I SUCK at drinking. We went to a liquor store before hand and we all got a drink. Kong grabbed a baily, Adrian grabbed a box of twist grab flavour and I decided to at least give drinking a try. So I grabbed a growers peach flavour. Here’s the sad part tried it, didn’t like it. I decided to at least finish it to at least get my alcohol tolerance going. After I finished one bottle. I got a head ache. And was slightly dizzy. I swear I must be messed up if one stupid cooler did that to me.
close to closing today, few side notes, some people think that i chose the name fallen-angel0 because its about a fallen angel, but i actually chose it for the name fallen angelo, because of the fall of the great artest of michangelo, when i heard that the painting of the sixtenth chapel was fading, and fallening apart. But i guess its not wrong, to say that fallen angelo, doesn't mean fallen angel, because it does. I just looked up the meaning of the name.
My name is actually pretty impressive, i hope i live up to it.... scratch that i know i will live up to it.
Anyways I’m getting tired and have class in the morning, talk later.

“I dream of you in a world without you.”

J-fest...

2006-06-06T05:43:00Z

Also tell me if your interested in this. if so we may go!
http://jfest.animeevolution.com/

Runninng in the snow is all i can do. At night i can only run as well.

2006-06-06T05:32:30Z

Well Yesterday was a blast. Went out and had breakfast with my family. Got sick. Went to work. HAD A BLAST! the kids where so cute. and it feels great picking on younger people! In the end it went fine. We all where smiling when it was over. Then went home. Kong and John came over. We played A.C.E. 2, Its so much better then the first. After I brought them along and did my thing. When my little mission was over. I called up the guys and we decided to got o night and day. (I've never been to one yet. and i still haven't) Turns out that there not 24 hours on sunday, so we went to tops. I was starving since i only ate brunch.( the meal in the morning was around 11) So i had steak! All i got to say is OMFG, I felt so full and content. when it was over we went to johns and played more games. some stayed some left.
Now today on other hand was so-so. Mainly because i haven't had any jobs call me back. or people return my call. Kong came over and we played some ace. but he had to go out and eat with his cousin. I was invited but i turned it down. 2 reasons, one i need to save money so i can last a week. 2 Me being out nearly everyday has kind of upsetted my mom so I'm just staying home. I'll probably go into over drive and find a job tomorrow. So far the greatest thing i did alone today was watching the latest Oh My Goddess. I don't care what people say i love this series, and today was a great one as well!
Right now I'm downloading Skype. I'll probably get a mic for it soon, or maybe even tomorrow.
I also watched a movie today. Its called "the Promise" a mandarin movie. All i have to say its the best chinese movie I've seen in a long time. Pat if you haven't seen it yet, i'll lend it to you. I don't really want to go in depth since it'll take the whole page to write.
http://www.apple.com/trailers/warner_independent_pictures/thepromise/
heres the trailer to it if you people are interested in watching it.
Anyways Signing off.

the lone wolf day

2006-06-03T09:36:22Z

Well today has been one of those days. Where I wish i wasn't single. I just had way to much free time on my hand. summary of the day. woke up around 10 am. went out for a lite jog. then came home and had brunch. Then I spent 3 hours fung swaying my room. I actually needed to clean up my room. When i finished I went and checked my marks. I was majorly surprised! i passed everything! but... marco econ. All i have to say i was pissed. I was off by 3% but i was pretty happy with a few of my other ones. I passed another course where i was going in with a 35% avg. I walked out with a 50%. god must have been nice. the fail rate on the final exam was 65%. so that means i just passed. final was worth 50%. Anyways back to my day. I then got all neat freak and started sweeping the floor. And washing the hard wood floor.I stopped because i was thinking about turning one of the spare rooms in my house into a personal library. thats when i stopped. i was to god damn tired to move book cases by my self. so i started to call people out. I gave everyone a call. only 2 people called back hours later and the 3rd was having dinner with family. I assume everyone was pretty much either on a date. or with their family. So i decided to go out. I should have went with white john to go out for dinner with random people. I went to a place called mirchi. Its a curry house. it was really good actually. I hadn't had spicy food for a while. so i ordered a Vindaloo. If you know your curry. you know its one of the hottest foods around. God did i enjoy it. And to top it off. I wanted ice cream after. I remembered the monster cookie at dairy queen, so i walked towards that direction.. I stop a few shops away when i noticed a gelatino shop.
no one knows this. but I've been looking for a flavour that i found a long time ago. i swear no one in vancouver had it. I had my first taste of this flavour and feel in love with it. I love this flavour because its the only one that taste the exact same as its smell.
The flavour is wild rose. That was the hight of my day. The rest was pretty much John calling me and me bashing my head to the wall. trying to figure out computer stuff. anyways THats it for today. Later

PS. someone ask me why do i like helping people and why do i only want to date someone who is staying in vancouver.
answer 1 I'm a selfish people who like the feeling that you get from doing nice things.
answer 2 I want to stay in vancouver and I don't want the girl I care for to stay behind for me. But i guess in the end i could move, but it really would depend where lol.(japan or some place in europe)

love lust FALIURE!

2006-05-22T01:28:16Z

well its time for my emotional self to let it all again!... a hem
I HATE PLAYERS THERE ASS HOLES THEY RUIN ALL MY CHANCES WITH PEOPLE I'M INTERESTED
found out a girl i'm interested is into a player. lol she just wanted to use me and be my friend. Then theres this other girl, i was like a week late. meet her 2 weeks ago, didn't have enough time to go back and meet her and then she got a bf a week later. thats not a player problem but i blame BCIT on this one. meh i have so much emo stuff to throw out. so if you don't want to hear it i say get off while you still can...

still here? okay. get ready for the emo read. ya so the girl then is asking me what should she do with the player, which she knows. it some russian guy. no its not yuri i thought it was but i checked it out.
Anyways been talking a few girls today. turns out one said that I'm aiming for the wrong type of girls, another gave me advice one i like and one i honestly hated. the one i hated was that i should be more or a player if i want a girl. i was totally against this. since players are everythingi stand against. the other told me the more active i look for girls, the more desperate i seem, and thats a turn off. which might explain alot. so I guess i will finally take that suggestian and just bugger off on looking for a girlfriend. These 2 girls are called Ming and Tiffany. There nice people and i think the will be great friends. what else. Ya and Ellen as most of you know just kept telling me i'm looking for the wrong type of girl. lol I honestly don't know that i was going after the wrong type. Anyways 7 exams left. later.

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why am i not surprised? well i wanted pirate or ninja... cowboy would be cool.

2006-05-21T03:32:48Z

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a car painted love and hate

2006-04-25T19:08:38Z

I felt like updating after not updating for a while. Not much to day other then I bombed my econ midterm. 10 courses really suck the life out of you. In additional to what I am already taking. I'm no taking business math and human resources management. An online course. On my way to class I passed this viberantent car. Very colourful, very paradise like. It had the words painted on it "choose love its stronger then hate." In my mind I started to agree with it, but then I thought.... that’s not always true. I think that hate and love are equally strong. The only difference is that Hate makes you do you things that seem insane, while love makes you do stuff that seem incredible.
Over the week that I haven't been online. I talked to my friends, Adrian is finally off his curse of no bubble tea, and Jocy, Waylon, Jessie, and Mel as usual are working their ass off for finals. I on the other hand don't have finals....Yet. BCIT works on a messed up calendar. I get exams 2 week into May. Last one for me I may 31! Whoop Dee do.... Well as the list goes on. Anne went back to Japan for a while. Not sure how john is since I can't seem to find him anymore. John's been dying to get an e drum set. I found one for him that rents it out for 85$ a month or you could buy it for 1000$. Seems like a good idea.
I found out yesterday that I’m going back to Hong Kong during the winter break. That sucks but I need to renew my citizen ship. I hope other people go back as well so I don’t feel lonely. Its not that I hate Hong Kong. But I swear people back there don’t know the words manners. And the people who have them are in the upper class and there from my experience are snobs!
Well since the sun is finally out, spring is in the air the season of love is upon us. Lets see what fate has in store for me this year. Well for one thing fate wants me to get my wisdom teeth out soon. I have a dentist appointment this Friday. Its not the procedure just the check up to see the date when I can get it out. Most likely a Friday or in the month of June when exams are done.
Another note, AE is almost here in a few months. I’m going but the costume is debatable. I’m so far going as a host club member, eye shield 21 character and a guy from utraremono. I really like that series. Take a guess if you want at who I’ll be. Although some of you guys probably already know. Also right now I’m debating if I want to go and turn my account into a sponsor account… meh think about it.
Later

PS, heres a flash thats really sentamental. you'll know what i mean if you watch it.
http://newgrounds.com/portal/view/309291 its called a girl's 1001 wishes

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-04-10T00:57:00

2006-04-10T07:57:18Z

anew anime season is upon us.
Well nothing much to say other then I'm now taking 10 cources. and i really wanted to talk about the new shows i'm watching. thank god 3 shows ended or my band with would die.
first its:
air gear. Its not bad its about sup up roller skates.

Digimon saver. I just had to take a look at this, its funny cuz agumon treats his partner like a yakuza boss. also those stupid googles are gone from the main character.

Host Club. All i got to say is this is the funniest show I've seen in a long time. I mean OMG! I'm mean they have a guy that looks and acts like momiji! His name is called Honey, and carries a rabbit.... he might be his cousin!

Zega Pain. Its a mech series, pretty cool if you like mech. Its hard to explain it, i'm going to watch this a bit and stick with it if i like it.

Soul-link. a space coloney i assume mech type. I like it... i don't know why yet.

Kiba. I have no idea where to place this series.... The art is different. has blood, so don't watch if you don't like blood.

Amaenaideyo Katsu. this is a harem type, never the less i'll see if it actully gets better in 2 or 3 episodes. Its a groupe of shinto prestess and a specail monk. there all pretty young. around 14 or 15 i think.

Kyou no Go no Ni. This is another one of my current fav. Its a comedy with elementry school kids. its funny as hell, but at other times really odd. They kids are i assume 7th grade.... i kind of don't feel like explaining this series. Just watch it yourself.

stuff i finished.
REC. its a short 9 episode anime with a length of 11 min each episode. I really like this, its about a girl who finished high school and is becoming a voice actress. I wont talk about this much, just try if yourself.

Mai Otome, this series was interesting, it was like sailor moon meets vandread. I only enjoyed bits of this one, it had its moments but during this middle it felt a bit dragged.

Black Cat. I don't know what to say... it was like the manga but also it wasn't.... the ending felt like there will be a black cat 2. for there sake i hope not. This thing was the beginning was great. competely different from the manga, but it made it better that way. but the ending was crap. Just because a character is named Eve doesn't mean you need to throw in a guy named Adam. Well thats it for now. later.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-03-31T14:29:00

2006-03-31T22:35:48Z

Its that time again. My relatives who help at the restuarant are on vacation. So that means i have to fill in for them. Whichs means, work today, and weekend from party till 6 or 7pm. then around closing time i need to find some friends to help me more some stuff. The restuarnt is getting a make over.

Well kingdom hearts 2 out. Which means I need to get it. I'm still remember the day, i kicked the ass of the platinum hair dude.(couldn't spell his name). I really want to see mini yuna and rikku. There one of my fav female character in the ff series. Heres a link I just felt had be to shown.

http://www.ctrlaltdel-online.com/comics/20060329.jpg

Well on a sidenote. I'm really hating my luck with ladies. Its seems that when ever i'm interested in someone. They have a boyfriend!.so far its been like 80%. Anyways back to the books.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-03-22T18:22:00

2006-03-23T02:22:30Z

http://www.faculty.org/timetables/INTT2A_Spring_Timetable.aspx
This is a link to my personal timetable. I am SO FREAKING HAPPY TODAY! you want to know why? As some people might have a heard My ipod nano died on me. well not really died, more like froze, the OS just stopped. I've been looking for a way to send it back to apple to get it fixed. My god i hate macs and the way there site has been set up.
Today I happened to bump into the site that teaches you how to reset your Ipod. I did what it said and it works! so its fizes!!!! ITS FREAKEN FIXED! Anyways i can't think of anything else to type. I've had so much to say in my mine the last couple days. i wanted to say so much this week. but my mind draws a black today.
For people who are interested my B-day was fun. friends gave me cool gifts. I even got one from John. and Its a rare thing to get anything from him. His belief is that hes doesn't give you stuff, you don't give him stuff.
O ya i remember what one thing i wanted to say. I think i cought the norwa virus on sunday.... It really really sucked. I had a head ach, i couldn't walk with out my head feeling like it was going to explode. and a stomach ach. in short i couldn't eat for 2 days or so.
the week before sunday was my spring break. It was actually pretty fun. I spent my break at UBC. laught as much as you want. Since my friends where there I had fun. I went and learned some cool stuff. Like urine, cells, and womens economics. I totally agree with john on this, its a joke.
Nothing else much to say. I went to UBC with a personal agenda, and it was not completed at all. You can take a guess if you want. and most likely you'll get it right on the dot. anyways i said enought for today later.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-03-16T00:30:00

2006-03-16T08:37:08Z

WOOT and not woot. I'm 21 today... nothing much happened. My spring break has been this week, nothing much has happened. Jocy and waylon gave me a cool present. This week, I have been helping friends with some stuff, getting magic cards, playing wench, and going to UBC. Anyways need to sleep, I'll type more later. night.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-03-09T10:24:00

2006-03-09T18:26:45Z

Nothing much to say, just saw NANA live action movie, so down loading for a friend....I wonder if they already watched it? and downloading Tsubasa chronicals movie.

exam week

2006-03-08T08:12:18Z

well the readon i haven't updated is cuz of exams, can't talk long. just wanted to scream!!!! Well anyways see you all next week, which is my spring break see ya. Also the japanese voice actress for Rikku is really cute.
ALSo the down side of the day, marketing Exam and accounting exam. Next one is intertnation busness, Compyer excel, and stats math. Honestly BCIT was made to crush people.
highligh of the day, MY SUPER HEAD PHONES! Been dying to buy a pair, they fit so well, and sound SO GREAT! nothing beats the soothing music of Rei Fu easing your self out of stress, ugg head ach better get back to studying before it gets really big.

The One I Love

2006-02-23T20:52:25Z

Well I'm in marketing, one of my so so subjects. Its been a stressful time and it'll get worst before it gets better. Few things on feel like saying, One I started a habit of chewing cinnamon, not sure if i said that, also been reading some old papers laying around me. I found one from the school about love. Ya i know Valentines day has passed, but i felt like talking about it. Also because I've read a few manga, a few are pastle, open sesame and addicted to curry. Ya thats where i picked up the cinnamon habit. one interesting concept in Pastle is that it said:
"Love is like eating something really good. And the first person you think of you want to share with is the one closest to you."
I guess in a way that this is love. Well because of valentines day, the feeling of love lingers in the air, like the smell of sweet perfume in a room thats been empty for a while. I can't say that i'm not affected by the season of love.

I've recently had enough time and bought some comics at the comics shop, Yes i read comics, which where great. It helped me relax a bit. I recently ordered "The one I love" by CLAMP. I've been interested in this one shot series for a while, why? i don't really no.. i blame my sappy personality.

if you still reading this, yes i know I'm random but this way of talking helps me get alot off of my head. Well this should be enough for now.
You know what? someone type something in the comments. Cuz if no one even read this, i should probably just stop caring about spelling.
Well chow.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-02-21T02:26:00

2006-02-21T10:27:16Z

its 2:21 and i'm still lacking info for my business journal for school, due in 6 hours. can't talk long, wanted to say that i finished Giban Kaleidoscope, was a pretty sad ending, good series. Also picked up a habit of chewing on cinnamon sticks, helps me relax i find and keeps me focus. need to keep this short. Starting 12 hours from now, i'll be free for 1 day, got a pro d day! so yah!!!! which means i need to clean up the house. I kind of took over the entire house with my studying again. Its been so far my room, computer room, basement, dinning room and now kitchen. my house isn't big so its a bit of a pain for my family. Anyways back to work. Later.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-02-13T22:00:00

2006-02-14T06:02:43Z

ya!!! tomorrow is valentines day!!!!! you know what that means! the day after is cheap chocolate day!!!!! just watched smallvil, and i'm sad. they pulled an uncle Ben from spider-man. aka they killed clark kents dad! hes not suppose to die. On an odder note, lana lang used to be one of my top girls who i would love to date... but now... shes not. I wouldn't mind if offer the chance, its just that the appeal is gone. Anyways tomorrow is valentines day, lol i actually paid for fun, one of those match maker forms. this will be interesting.
Well i lost my cool today and punched the table after i got my quiz results back. i only 50% it, good and bad. the good i didn't fail, and break the table or my right hand. the bad, its freaking 50%! i am not satisfied will such a pathetic mark! its worth 10% of my overal mark!, anyways back to work see ya later peeps.

PS, pat i'm feeling better, thanks for worrying about me.

PPS. I never really expected to use my pissed off icon ever, it was just there.

emo rant, don't read if you don't care. pissed at self

2006-02-12T08:25:08Z

I'm confused.. not sure what to do in life. I'm all so pissed at myself. If I didn't waste my time, if I studied harder, if I studied properly. I wouldn't be in this crap ass situation. I would be in UBC with my friends, in forestry (yes forestry cuz I can actually see myself enjoying it).
There’s a lot of people I want to blame, teachers, adults, friends. But in truth I guess I should blame myself. Lol. There’s also a few things I want to rant about, my looks, the things that come out of my mouth. Really do I even hear the words that come out of there? I mean I prefer typing, cuz at least I can think about the stuff, before its final. People say think before you speak... but I don't fully agree with that. I mean if all people do that. Some people will never give an honest answer. There are ups and downs to that, but I guess more ups then down in my case.
Some friends have given me great advice, and so far I have only used a few, like being more humble, rather then saying I’m an honest and a nice guy. Or be less naive (my friends not sure about this, since they said this is what makes me me.) There isn't much more that I can rant about, other that I hate myself and should be a man with more passion.
Wow Valentine day is coming, friends are all going on a lil romance trip. God I don't know why the thought of needing a gf crosses my mind. I agree with my friend Joan, I'm not looking for physical pleasure, more emotional. But the chances of me getting a gf is currently slim to none. lol most likely I would push her away. I don't want to hurt her but being with me might, I mean I’m at BCIt, not much time to spend with her, and I mean what can I offer? I mean my friend John goes to UBC, and can offer more stuff then I can! Makes me wonder why he chooses single life? I guess he doesn't like being tied down. Nearly everyone around me is hooked up. I should learn something off them. But I guess it would if I dated someone, it wouldn't be by my own strength, but from my friends... I just don't think I would be happy with that. (Funny thing, I can imagine one of my friends saying that that’s the dumbest thing ever)
God I keep coming up with random stuff, I guess my mind if just full of thoughts.

Here’s something I heard that really spoke to me.
Cecilia: Are our purpose in life preset? If we are born with a title of a princess, does that mean we don't have a choice to be who we are? I have lived with people only accepting me by my title, never for who I am, but rather what I stand for.
*From Wild Arms Alter code:F*

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-02-11T01:33:00

2006-02-11T09:33:07Z

Well Valentine day is almost here. the day where come single people try and hook up with others, or when friends hand with each others to keep each other copy, its also the day when lovers hook up and try to make it a night to remember. This year, I'll probably stick my head into a book, while my friends have the time of there life. (there going boarding). Its noth that i don't want to, but can't and shouldn't. Anyways the night is late, i need to bury my sleep on a text book, if i;m lucky it might go to my brain. sweet dreams.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-02-06T01:39:00

2006-02-06T09:40:23Z

Nothing much to say. Just stating I'm going to start my thinking engine... go into high gear.... max out and smash into a brick wall. see ya going to by myself a grave.

Some quote i like:
Only if you use your power to protect that which is truly precious.. Then, that is something you can truly call courage.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-01-31T18:02:00

2006-02-01T02:17:40Z

I would like to start, yesterday was tiring for working on the stupid country report. I started when i got home, around 4:00 and worked straight until 1:00am. At this time I went to the place across the street an printed out the 73 page draft. Sad thing is, that its a DRAFT! so its not done and most likely has another 20 odd pages left. Its a group project so its not THAT bad, but i got stuck editing and its not fun. finished around 2:00am so it's been a rough start. What made it all better was that there was a team game, and so I decide to solo it, since it was a betting game, 2 bucks to enter and winner takes the pot. and you pay 1 dollar to ask a question of the teacher. there where 4 teams in total and 3 team payed to enter the pot including mine. in short I beat 2 team, which made a total of 32$. I beat the smartest people in my class and then some. It kick ass, anyways later, mid term coming up.

fallen_angel0 @ 2006-01-23T03:33:00

2006-01-23T03:34:55Z

WEll today was the very tiring day. This morning the freakest thing happened. My patio door was smashed! get this, from the inside out. As some people know, my basement is pretty cold because of a vent that lets outside air in. But at the same moment the ground is heated to keep the inside warm. So My dad covered a bit of the vent to keep the basement warmer. In the morning I came down to study before work, and I kept hearing this sound that was like ice craking, and to my freaky surprise the window was smashed at the lower left. So in my mind I kind of figured out what happened. The could air made the window crack. It was pretty freaky. I thought someone broke into my house.
The odd thing is, only the bottom left side is broken, but the entire window is cracked and it actually looks nice.
Anyways heres the thing Uzuki posted that I've been waiting to post.

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Anyways back to accounting hw.